But I'm losing it. Not completely but if I'm not an emotional basket case right now, I don't know what else you'd call it. I was doing great until Tuesday. Monday, was a typical Monday. Went to work, all day kept positive that we only have a week left until the blood test. A week down in this 2ww, just 1 week to go. That's it!
Then Tuesday came and for some reason, I'm ready to cry at the drop of a hat. I am scared as shit of this not working. All I can think about is the upcoming holidays and my birthday and I can't fathom getting through them right now. I honestly don't know where my positive self went. I need her back! I don't like feeling this way, I really don't. I don't feel like I have any control over my thoughts or emotions. Not a great feeling. I'm trying to take the deep breathes, think of my puppies, think of things that make me happy. Works for about a minute. I need it to be Monday already. Who the hell wishes the weekend away to get to a Monday I ask? No one in their right mind.